Searching With My Good Eye Closed

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

Dear jiji,

Sorry...
Sorry I wasn't there when you needed me...
Sorry i couldnt help when you needed me to...
Sorry i couldn't say what you needed to hear,
And i'm sorry i couldnt hear what you needed to say...
Sorry i couldn't be what you needed me to be,
And i'm sorry you weren't what i needed you to be....
I'm sorry you thought that i never cared......
And i'm sorry because i probably didn't.

My intentions were never to hurt you, never to show you up,
But intentions aren't always good enough....
I didn't intend to make things the way they are now,
I only intended to make you smile....
I didn't realise that with every smile comes twice as many tears,
That hapinness should have such a price...
I didn't think you'd have to be the one to pay,
I didn't think it'd turn out at all in this way...

I'm sorry that love wasn't enough, wasn't good enough,
I tried my hardest to make it work, but i guess that wasn't good enough....
I'm sorry for leading you on like i did,
I'm sorry for leading you astray....
I know that things are bad right now,
But they'll get better... some day... InsyaAllah

I'm sorry my dear... sorry for hurting you